BELIEVE: Can you believe that it's 2013? I am a child of the 60's ... a time when there were so many advances being made. I grew up playing outside, walking to school with friends, not going home at night until the street lights came on and knowing that everything I needed would somehow be provided, don't get me wrong, I didn't get everything I wanted, but no one I knew did either so I never felt deprived. I believed that my future could be anything I wanted it to be. We were taught to believe, it kept us going and made us strong. I believe that though my 2012 was devastatingly sad after the loss of my husband, my life can be good and full again. I do believe!
CHANGE: My mother always told me that nothing can stay the same in our lives and that the world is full of change. She preached that we needed to change with it or get buried by progress. My year is bound to be full of changes, I have hit the 50 mark. My life changed when the phone rang and I learned that the love of my life had passed away. I am now responsible for creating a new me, hopefully healthier, stronger and better prepared to perhaps live without a partner for the rest of my life. I am going to need to find a new place to live, that could mean leaving Connecticut. I need to go back to work, that will mean perhaps going back to school and recreating a more educated me that will fit in better to a work world that I have not been a part of for almost 13 years. I can Change!
FAITH: This could be the hardest point for me to incorporate in to my life right now. I have always believed in certain things, some very much ingrained in religion, though I do not consider myself an overly religious person. I have beliefs, I do try to live by them ... they are the basics that most people teach their children as they grow. So many things have happened since Brian died that have given me cause to "question my faith", but I am working on it and hope that this year will bring me some peace in that area.
TIME: If I have learned anything in this past year, I have learned that time goes very quickly in this world. We are not guaranteed any specific amounts of time to get our affairs in order. There is no "Time" like the present. I know now that now is the time to believe, change and find my faith. I will not wait to tell someone I love them, I will not wait to pay a compliment, I will not wait to travel, or enjoy those little things in life that we so often put off for a "better time". Time can be our worst enemy or our best friend, depending on how we decide to use it.
Remember: I will always remember the lessons I have been taught in my life, I will remember that I need to believe and have faith in change. I will also try to use my time more wisely and I will always remember that even when I think things are bad, it can always be worse.
The things we take for granted someone else is praying for.